New Project! Be A Better Me!

Two nights I had in my mind exactly what I was going to write in this post to kick start it. I forgot. 

So just gonna wing it! (like everything in my life)

HI

So a few weeks ago I had a bit of a mental break through (following a mental breakdown). At the time, I was fast approaching another birthday (one step closer to 40) and while it could be argued that I’ve accomplished a lot in life and had my own share of successes, I wasn’t.... happy. 

I mean sure, who is? We are in the middle of a global pandemic. Politics are a shit show no matter what country you live in. Racial injustice, natural disasters, people not knowing how to wear a bloody mask correctly!!! All of this will clearly affect people mentally. Sadly, this is a feeling I’ve been dealing with for the last 15 years at least. So, I decided I’m going to do something about it...hopefully...maybe? 

I first had to establish what I want that could make me happier with myself. 

With the availability of the internet, it’s easy to look at others smiling faces and see what they got and what they accomplished and wish I could be/do the same. A great paying job, happy family, on top of their finances, eating a whole cake with no consequences, exotic vacations, sticking to a task, a fit body!!! The thing is though, my life experiences shaped me to be who I am both physically and mentally. I don’t want to be someone else, imitating their lives. I want to be me; just better and happy with who I am. Be confident in my own skin! There was also the fact that I work in a primary school that is really big on promoting a positive mindset in children...well, how can I do that when I myself don’t have a positive mindset? 

And thus, Be A Better Me was born. 

OK, so now what?

To start off I plan to set daily, weekly, monthly and yearly tasks that I want/need to do but don’t for whatever reason. These tasks will be mostly stuff that in the grand scheme of things don’t seem like much. However, these are all things that I want to do and do better.

It is with the hope that by doing these things and challenging myself to do the things I dislike or put off, that I’ll be happy with what I’ve accomplished and proud of myself with the overall end result of being happy with who I am. That is what I want. I want to be happy in my own body in my own life. Not just going along with the flow and being miserable 95% of the time and wishing it could be better or that I could do better but doing nothing to actually change it.  

So how am I going to keep track of all this? 

A coworker introduced me to bullet journalism and I was hooked! 

What the hell is a bullet journal you say? Only the best planner ever!! Go check out Pinterest if you want to learn more. 

Bullet journals are great because they allow you to have a planner that works for YOU and that is what I need. Using the dot grid, you can create it to look however you want. Decorate it however you want! Over the years I could never find one that suited my needs 100% and it was a struggle to remember to use the one I eventually settled on. So after making a massive list of what I wanted in my journal (and hours spent searching Instagram and Pinterest for inspiration) I’ve set out to make my own. It’s still a work in progress and I’m only making a few months in advance so I can change and adapt as I go. 

One of the things I’m implementing is my BABM goals. Each week I’ll have my daily and weekly goals as well as monthly goals and goals to work on over the year. The plan is, if I write it down, it gets done. No matter how painful or how much I don’t want to do it when the time comes!! That’s the biggest problem I have with life. I’ll set out to do something then when the time comes, I end up finding an excuse to not do it or to put it off for another time. You only have one life...fucking live it! Stop putting things off! That is, at the end of the day, the ONE thing above all I want to improve on!

So what are the goals?

As I said before, a lot of these are really simple things. Some of my daily/weekly goals are keeping up on my water intake (I really REALLY do not drink enough), keeping up with my yoga/boxing and sticking to my calorie counting (gotta shift this lock-down weight). But I’m also tossing in some harder ones for me which I’ll go into another time. (this blog is one of them) 

It’s the harder ones that are going to be the real challenge but at the end of the day, I want to do better and that includes these shitty harder things. Also to note, these goals will change each week, each month. Some will be added on the fly. As long as I stick to the motto of “if it gets written down, it gets done” then we are golden!!  

So this blog, along with my journal, are my tools to help me on this journey to Be A Better Me! The plan is to use this blog as a means of highlighting some of my goals and showing progress I made. I’ll also use twitter and Instagram to keep track (another big goal - post more even if no one sees it. Do it for ME) . So, yes. This blog is for me. If you are reading this then thank you for taking the time to get this far. Feel free to come back and follow me as I try to do better and maybe this will help encourage others to do little things to make them more happier with themselves as well.